Archive | August, 2014

What Will Your Verse Be?

13 Aug

What Will Your Verse Be?

Robin Williams

Robin Williams

R.I.P. Robin Williams. Rest in Peace Mork. Such a great actor! Sad. Depression is a disease like any physical disease. It is not a character flaw! Hopefully people will withhold judgement and pray for his soul. A person contemplating depression is in extreme emotional and physical pain. Yes I do wish a family member or friend had been there to stop him but since that was not the case may Angels have conducted him to Paradise. The Tears of a Clown. Often smiles and Laughter hide multitudes of emotional pain and agony.

Robin Williams

Robin Williams

People especially persons who are perceived to be living successful lives are the most afraid to admit they have depression probably because nobody will believe them or they will be criticized. Often exposing this disease causes one to be ostracized. No one wants to be an object of scorn, ridicule or gossip. I wish people were kinder, gentler and not so quick to push asides the very real concerns and fears of those suffering with depression. Triggers and panic attacks are real. It’s not a matter of just changing your thinking or uttering some “Happy Talk” phrases. Think about this: would you tell a cancer or heart patient that all you have to do is think positive thoughts and your disease will go away? No! I don’t think so! Depression needs to be treated for what it is; a malfunction in the brain, soul, psyche. It is a spirit that is completely broken and without hope. People do not decide one day to hate themselves or do self-harm. These things develop over a period of time and the finally outcome like in many bodily diseases is death. Mental illness is a disease not a character flaw! If that person tells you they think people hate them or they feel lonely and cut off from the world believe me that is very real to them! They are not imaging things because those thoughts have become their reality. Prayer is helpful but not everything can be prayed away! Medical and holistic treatment is needed not criticism or judgement. Folks reaching out for help should be embraced not deluged with comparisons of themselves to others. They are not them anymore than you are these so-called Life Coaches or ministers who inadvertently cause fragile souls to snap. Who knows tomorrow it may be you or someone you Love.

Robin Williams

Robin Williams

Love Embraces all our Broken pieces. Be there for a Wounded Soldier fighting internal battles for we fight not against flesh and blood but against the principalities and powers of the mind.

Ephesians 6:12 King James Version (KJV)

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

Depression clouds your judgement and you lose perspective on life. That’s why people kill themselves because they really don’t see any other way out. They are desperate. For them it’s like looking at yourself in a fun-house mirror. Your self-image is skewed and out of proportion. Their reality becomes a living nightmare and you constantly seek escape any way you can. Fear keeps you wearing the False Mask of Happiness because no one wants to be an object of scorn, ridicule or gossip.

Psalm 42 King James Version (KJV)

42 As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.
2 My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?
3 My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?
4 When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.
5 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.
6 O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.
7 Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.
8 Yet the Lord will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.
9 I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?
10 As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?
11 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

 

HELP LINES ~

National Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-8255 (24/7)
National Alliance On Mental Illness 1-800-950-6264 (M-F)
National Mental Hotline 1-800-662-4357 (24/7)
Disaster Distress Hotline 1-800-985-5990 (24/7)
Veterans Crisis Hotline 1-800-273-8255 (24/7)
National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233 (24/7)
National Child Abuse Hotline 1-800-422-4453 (24/7)
National Elder Abuse Hotline 1-800-677-1116 (9am/8pm)

I Am The Face That Nobody Wants to See

10 Aug

Now I See as I Am Seen ~ I Am The Face No one Wants to See

DeBorah ~ MMC 2002 Grad

DeBorah ~ Marymount Manhattan College 2002 Graduation

I am the face of Mental Illness in America. The face that nobody wants to see. The face that people wish would go away. For years I tried to deny my illness which is hereditary.  I’ve had it since I was a teenager. But I just want people to know that I’m the person sitting next to you on the subway, bus, in church, temple, at your job; next to you in the Shopping Mall, walking down the street, enjoying a day in the park, having fun at a club or concert, the Veteran who served her country, the Woman who graduated Cum Laude from College while fighting unseen demons.

I am the Face of Domestic Violence.  I am the Face of Sexual Abuse.

Yes I’m one of the Everyday People.  Sometimes I feel as though I’m living in a Dystopian Universe. My own personal Hunger Games, bodies falling all around me. Yet I the Damaged Battle Scarred Warrior fight on.  One of Jephthah’s Daughters, I Refuse to be stigmatized because of the Stigmata I bear.  The Bread of Heaven Sustains Me.

I’ve taken measures to remove Toxic people and Naysayers from my Life.  I’ve formed a New Family since the one I was born into abandoned me.  Yes this is my Thorn in the Flesh and I Own it. Some battles I win. Some I lose. But throughout my life I remain me. Not ashamed of who I am or how I go about living my life.  No excuses. No apologies. Just me. Only those going through the Fire truly understand.

I AM!  I AM!!   I AM!!!

 

“Just Recovery with a side of Mental and Emotional Illness Please”…

10 Aug

I am the face of Mental Illness in America. The face that nobody wants to see. The face that people wish would go away. For years I tried to deny my illness which is hereditary. I’ve had it since I was a teenager. But I just want people to know that I’m the person sitting next to you on the subway, bus, in church, temple, at your job; next to you in the Shopping Mall, walking down the street, enjoying a day in the park, having fun at a club or concert, Yes I’m one of the Everyday People. I’ve taken measures to remove Toxic people and Naysayers from my Life. I’ve formed a New Family since the one I was born into abandoned me. Yes this is my Thorn in the Flesh and I Own it. Some battles I win. Some I lose. But throughout my life I remain me. Not ashamed of who I am or how I go about living my life. Only those going through the Fire truly understand.

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Hello Recovery Friends, Seekers, and New Visitors,

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I wanted to talk a little about “Dual Diagnosis,” and living life in recovery, and suffer with Mental/Emotional illness and disorders, which I am a person affected with these issues…

Two things happened yesterday to bring this topic to light for me. The first was this very topic was talked about last night on my Twitter Tweet-Chat, as was yesterday morning I got a call from my husband’s sister. She said she had bad news about my husband’s nephew Ricky. She had to talk him into checking himself into a mental crisis center via the ER. I guess he has battled severe depression for weeks and started to have thoughts of SUICIDE! So he did check himself in. See, he and his brother has had a really rough patch for the past 2 years. And, I’m now convinced my husband’s side of the family…

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