Now I See as I Am Seen ~ I Am The Face No one Wants to See
I am the face of Mental Illness in America. The face that nobody wants to see. The face that people wish would go away. For years I tried to deny my illness which is hereditary. I’ve had it since I was a teenager. But I just want people to know that I’m the person sitting next to you on the subway, bus, in church, temple, at your job; next to you in the Shopping Mall, walking down the street, enjoying a day in the park, having fun at a club or concert, the Veteran who served her country, the Woman who graduated Cum Laude from College while fighting unseen demons.
I am the Face of Domestic Violence. I am the Face of Sexual Abuse.
Yes I’m one of the Everyday People. Sometimes I feel as though I’m living in a Dystopian Universe. My own personal Hunger Games, bodies falling all around me. Yet I the Damaged Battle Scarred Warrior fight on. One of Jephthah’s Daughters, I Refuse to be stigmatized because of the Stigmata I bear. The Bread of Heaven Sustains Me.
I’ve taken measures to remove Toxic people and Naysayers from my Life. I’ve formed a New Family since the one I was born into abandoned me. Yes this is my Thorn in the Flesh and I Own it. Some battles I win. Some I lose. But throughout my life I remain me. Not ashamed of who I am or how I go about living my life. No excuses. No apologies. Just me. Only those going through the Fire truly understand.
I AM! I AM!! I AM!!!