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Prophetic Calling ~ Higher Ground

4 Aug

Prophetic Calling- Higher Ground

Knew that I was in the right place from the moment I walked through the door. Experiencing regeneration and renewal.

Higher Ground – Stevie Wonder (1973)

I have stepped into my Destiny. I did not choose the path, the Path chose me. The Ancestors knew what I needed and sent me the gifts of the spirit. As I wrote about in a previous post (Genetic Memory) my ancestors have begun to visit me with greater frequency.

As a child I was more open to the spirit world and I can recall from ages three to six I had many visitations from alternate universes. At age four I was looking at a baby photograph of myself and my brother on the living room wall and being able to go back to my origin or source and return at will. Around age five bedtimes became of time of numerous visitations but by then these creatures or creations began to frighten me. I did my best to will them away since it wasn’t something I could tell my parents.

Still the spirits attempted to get through some of them not so good. During my twenties I had some horrible nightmares of not being able to breathe or demons trying to choke or strangle me, but that may have been the result of too much fire and brimstone sermons. I was always impressionable and unbeknownst to some preachers sensitive spirits in their congregations pick up on the fear and punishment side of Christianity opening up a portal to hell as opposed to salvation and redemption. Now with my explorations of the Gospel of Inclusion (Bishop Carlton Pearson) Buddhism and discovering I’m a Clairsentient I’m learning better mind control and discerning the whys, wheres, and whats of my ancestors wishes.

DeBorah ~ MMC 2002 Grad

DeBorah ~ Marymount Manhattan College 2002 Graduation

Shinnyo-en Buddhism

Knew that I was in the right place from the moment I walked through the door. Experiencing regeneration, restoration and renewal.

I have stepped into my Destiny. I did not choose the path, the Path chose me. The Ancestors knew what I needed and sent me the gifts of the spirit. Clarity of Vision. Opening my spirit to distant Galaxies.

One of the guided meditation teachers spoke a word of knowledge over me that could have only come from God. Another step along the path of purification. This is the beginning of understanding the many spiritual events in my life. I have not left Christianity but I believe I was led to this type of Buddhist thought and teachings as a compliment to my Christian faith.  Shinnyo-en has fed my mind, spirit and soul.

Psalm 42

New International Version (NIV)

1 As the deer pants for streams of water,

    so my soul pants for you, my God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
    When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food
    day and night,
while people say to me all day long,
    “Where is your God?”
4 These things I remember
    as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go to the house of God
    under the protection of the Mighty One[d]
with shouts of joy and praise
    among the festive throng.

5 Why, my soul, are you downcast?
    Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.

6 My soul is downcast within me;
    therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
    the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep
    in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
    have swept over me.

8 By day the Lord directs his love,
    at night his song is with me—
    a prayer to the God of my life.

9 I say to God my Rock,
    “Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I go about mourning,
    oppressed by the enemy?”
10 My bones suffer mortal agony
    as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
    “Where is your God?”

11 Why, my soul, are you downcast?
    Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.

In fact many Bible verses and the words of Jesus come to me more frequently and with increased clarity!  I must study to show myself approved and to grasp the teachings. Realizing now that both mind and body must be purified and the ability to focus must be cultivated. So far have been to two Guided Meditations and the effects are Amazing! I’m calmer in mind, spirit, soul & body and am better able to handle difficult situations. Remember me as the one who woke up.  As my Japanese girlfriend who introduced me to Shinnyo-en practice You will find Yourself.

Shinnyo-en

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Shinnyo Meditation Center

19 West 36th Street,

New York, NY 10018

www.shinnyo-ny.org

Not everyone will understand where you’re going in this life. The revelation for this time is only for you. They are not yet ready. John 13:34-36

King James Version (KJV)
34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

35 By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.

36 Simon Peter said unto him, Lord, whither goest thou? Jesus answered him, Whither I go, thou canst not follow me now; but thou shalt follow me afterwards.

Galatians 5:22-23

New International Version (NIV)
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

1 Corinthians 12:7-11
The Message (MSG)
4-11 God’s various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God’s Spirit. God’s various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God’s Spirit. God’s various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful:

wise counsel
clear understanding
simple trust
healing the sick
miraculous acts
proclamation
distinguishing between spirits
tongues
interpretation of tongues.
All these gifts have a common origin, but are handed out one by one by the one Spirit of God. He decides who gets what, and when.

 Baptist Buddhist

In the very short time I’ve committed to following the Shinnyo path I began to realize how hungry I was. Even though I was born and raised in the Christian faith when I was introduced to Shinnyo-en Buddhism I was as one starving and thirsty suddenly finding herself seated at a banquet table filled with delicious food and drink. It has been a process for me to throw off the shackles and chains of dogma and doctrine and allow new thought to enter in. For years I tried to suppress the spirit world with anti-depressants and other prescription drugs. Now I’m free from the constraints of my religious straitjacket empowered to put my truths my faith into action.

My parents were never committed to any church. In fact though they both believed in God they never attended church. I was brought up as a Freethinker and was always driving my parents’ crazy asking questions. Of course like nearly every Black kid growing up in the 1960s church was pretty much a non-negotiable. Every child in the neighborhood went to church. Since my mother was raised Baptist that’s where I went. If for some reason I did not make it out to Sunday school you can bet the Sunday School teacher would be calling my parents asking why I was not in church.  As I grew older I was swept up in the Evangelical movements of the 80s & 90s.  Even with the growing schemes and scandals I held onto my beliefs even though I was living a lifestyle contrary to the Bible. Only in May 2010 when my beloved Aunt Helen passed away did I realize that I had only attended church to please other people and did not believed most of what was preached from the pulpit.

In the back of my mind were questions, confusion, shame & guilt. I was a walking, talking living dichotomy.   Then right before Christmas 2006 not only did my life hit the fan but was completely shredded. I lost my “good job”, was unemployed for a year, my common-law husband left me for a younger new and improved woman. Finally in 2008 I started a new job that paid a lot less but at least I was working and had benefits.

More changes 2009 I turned 50. Am I really a card carrying member of AARP? The Change of Life. For a woman turning 50 is traumatic in more ways than one not only do we have to cope with physical and hormonal changes, there are the changes in society’s perception of older women. Sure Black don’t crack but age or maturity don’t lie. I’ve had to come to terms with what to do for my next 50 years on the planet. I’ve realized my calling as a writer.  Life is a walk by faith and not by sight experience.

One of the best things about being in one’s 50s is not caring what others think but following the path meant for me.  I’m still a Buddhist newbie and I’m struggling with some of the terminology but now my soul is being fed and even the Biblical scriptures have taken on new meaning and devotion. This Baptist Buddhist is beginning to find peace within her soul.

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Lolo and Tebow Uphold the Standard — No Tags Here!

26 May

Tagged you’re It?

Saluting Keeping One’s Virginity and Remaining or Returning to Celibacy

Lolo Jones

Lolo Jones — Olympic Hurdler

I’m making an update to this blog as a response to some idiot on Twitter who had the audacity to send me his blog regarding some fool man who has 30 kids out of wedlock. I guess he thought I would think his blog was funny. Desmond Hatchett is the poster child for oversexed males who think they are studs just because they can make a baby. If any of you read the original article on the web, Mr. Hatchett is petitioning the courts to eliminate his court ordered child support because he has nothing left once the courts garnish his wages. Mind you the children’s mothers are only receiving approximately $1.47 per child. How is it that stories about men and women who have numerous sexcapades which result in multiple unwed births make the headlines as though these immature baby making fools were performing a service to humanity while decent folks like Tim Tebow and Lolo Jones are laughed at because they have decided to remain Virgins!  Talk about double standard. How is it that the media and our society glamorizes slutty behavior making others who refuse to tow the line outsiders, unhip, or not cool.

For all those who prize sexual ability and/or availability over character, morals, intellect and just plain good judgement, if Lolo Jones and Tim Tebow continue to stick with their high principles they will avoid all the “Baby-Mama, Baby-Daddy, Sex Tapes going viral on YouTube and STD/VD issues.

Lolo Jones

Lolo Jones

Tagged or as I have found it to be the “Booty Call” social networking site is the antithesis of good taste and maturity among adults who claim they are trying to find a mate. All you will find on Tagged is a roll in the hay or if you’re not so lucky a combination Jack the Ripper/Ted Bundy sociopath.

How did I become so vehement against a social site in which I only have a passing relationship? (I have an account that I never use.) It all came to a head while I was lunching with a friend who not only uses the site on a regular basis but has accessed or accepted a selection of pornographic photos so vile and disgusting that even the hidden hedonist within me cringes to look at them. She was about to show me some X-rated pictures when she hesitated and made a remark that stunned me. She more or less accused me of being stuck-up or thinking that I was better than everyone else or specifically her because I no longer engaged in that lifestyle. Her comments really upset me because we have or I thought had a better close relationship. I was so hurt and upset because I thought that being a woman she would understand that I had made the choice to remain celibate because I was abused. She felt I should have gotten over what happened to me because domestic violence happens to plenty of women and I should just take up having sex with every and any men who cross my path. I have to admit because I was in emotional pain I made a rather extreme statement that, “I hated sex”.  This is not entirely true. Of course like any red blooded American woman I enjoy sex, that is sex with the right man. Believe me even at my age I’ve had plenty of opportunities to have sex. It seems once I made the celibacy decision and fought off temptation the devil has had more jackasses cross my path than I care to mention. They are dangle that carrot of supposed endless pleasure and passion before me but I refuse to take the bait because I know it is all a pack of lies and an illusion.

Judging from my girlfriend’s experience once you contact these males on Tagged they send you pictures of body parts, Ala disgraced New York representative Anthony Weiner. Yes I mean penises and in my girlfriends pictures, guys with elongated tongues. Hey, I’m in my 50s and to put it bluntly it will take more than a big dick and a long tongue to turn me on or even satisfy me. I’m long past the “He’s so Fine” stage. I’m looking for good character, integrity, intelligence, loyalty and a strong faith in God. Sex is an important part of a relationship between engaged or married couples and; since I don’t qualify on either stage why should I demean myself for a few moments of pleasure, his pleasures not mine.

My girlfriend is in her 40s and should also be long past that stage, claiming she wants to find a good man, settle down and get married but if you choose a man solely based on physical a characteristic, that’s all you get, is the superficial and shallow. Even though I’ve been insulted and ridiculed for my stand as a Christian woman I will continue to stay faithful and true to God’s Word. I’m enjoying very strong platonic relationships and dating garnering respect from my guy friends and dates. Eventually I too would like to get married but this time I will let God choose the mate not me.  Since I last wrote God has chosen my mate and I’m still going to wait and do things the right way this time.

Meagan Good adheres to celibacy while engaged

http://thegrio.com/2012/05/25/meagan-good-adheres-to-celibacy-while-engaged/#s:meagan-good-16×9-2

Megan Good

Megan Good

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